Getting Unstuck
The process to get unstuck feels very odd. The last few months have felt like I was living in some alternative world. Yes, I was going through the motions of my life – being a parent to two teens, navigating the world of balancing things, going to work, avoiding problems, hoping for more in some areas of my life – but still going through life. And there lies the problem. Going through life instead of living my life.
So where and how did I get stuck? Hmm, that’s a good question. It would have to equate that too many days of rain. And even the last few weeks of weather here in the Midwest are ironically exactly what I mean. Many days of rain, not the type that makes you wonder if the end of the world is near but enough to know something isn’t quite right. And there are moments of sun, which I can remember so clearly and hang onto. And yet the downpours are more frequent and stronger. Each one causing the ground to saturate more, my feet sinking in. And here where I live, we don’t have the lovely earth enriching black dirt but the stop you in your track clay. So as my feet slowly sink into the clay, as the rain fades, the clay hardens and I am stuck.
My stuck came from some of the questions that have come up in my mind. How do I pursue my dreams? Who do I disappoint if I do something different? How can I balance it all being a single parent, work full time and want to pursue other things? Why do I feel like I’m not enough? Why can I easily see potential in others and yet not in myself? And the list goes on. These are the questions that cause me to become stuck.
So why break out now? How to become unstuck? Funny, I think the answers are in my own words. I’ve rarely if ever, go back and read my own posts (in part fear that my grammar is less than desirable, though I focus more on the message than scholarly things). Take chances. Choose the lens to view life. Life is about balance. I am enough. I have just as much potential as all the other people I see and meet. And most notable I am magically awaking at 4:30 am, the time I used to journal and write. The universe is on my side, sending me messages it’s time to become unstuck.
I am ready to be unstuck. Awareness of being stuck has been my first step. Identifying why I become stuck my second. Believing in myself has become my third. Taking steps to be unstuck is my fourth including journaling and meditating daily. Now I am on my path to be unstuck. Maybe, just maybe, that same rain that softened the ground in which I became stuck is really a way to cleanse myself and loosen the ground not to be stuck but for me to take the actions I need to pursue my dreams and be unstuck. ~ChaCha
