Trust Me...
I am not sure where or when this all began and I waffle back and forth if this is a good trait to have but I trust too much. I'm sure you're scratching you head thinking "trust too much?". Some folks I have met are skeptical and untrusting until a person proves otherwise. At the same time, some folks I have met believe there are conspiracies to trick people into trusting. And then there folks like me that trust entirely too much very early on. While for the most part I do believe trusting folks is an important trait to have. Trust allows us to connect with other people and we may take risks we may not have tried. Trust feels good and safe in a world portrayed as terrible and evil. Trust shows a positive and loving side of life. Â
So what's wrong with that? To which I say, absolutely nothing. Trust is good. My downfall is trusting too much, very early on which include the justification of trust at time of giving the benefit of the doubt and willing to overlook the patterns of deception to hang on the dream of trust. So I know trust is good, but the sort of trust I practice can get be draining. Recently an old friend wanted to rekindle an old flame. A good person at heart but I think the fear of being alone, as it's been expressed more than enough times, leads to actions that make me doubt if I should trust. But like an overly optimistic person, the transgressions of the past are put aside and I trust, again, for the about the 5th time in two decades. When traits are revealed and run around explanations pour out, I know continuing to give the benefit of the doubt and not wanting to think the worse of somebody will win over to keep me trusting, at least for a bit longer. And in the end, I finally realize that some people who don't trust themselves do things to erode my trust in them. I still know this person has a good heart. And has managed to pierce a hole in my trust for them. The flip side of trusting too much is not trusting at all. And I understand cautionary trust until you get to know somebody or to ensure you're not being taken advantage of but no trust is a wall built up to "protect yourself" when in fact it's merely a means to not build connections, isolate and separate yourself from any potential hurt and allows you to say "I told you so" in the rare event something wrong happens. Be cautious of out impacts of not trust. Trust, cautiously, but trust. Trust your gut, Trust your instincts. Trust your spider senses (yep, I love Spider-Man). But trust yourself enough to trust others. The connections are stronger. Life is more positive. You will see good in people you may not otherwise has noticed. Trust. ~ ChaChaÂ
